A Much Needed January Coffee Date


if we were to go on a coffee date, I would say screw the coffee, lets meet for wine. #noshame

partly because coffee just isn't going to cut it in this moment and partly because well, I am currently sitting in a wine bar...again, no shame.

speaking of wine bars, I am in love with this one. it is called Grand Cru and you start a tab and then get a wristband. there are about 15 wines on tap-oh yeah, on tap, and you can control the pour as each one is priced per ounce.  they also do small bites and charcuterie plates so, I call it a major win.

if we were meeting for wine, I would tell you I am struggling. seriously some days I feel like I am drowning and just can't get to the surface. I never thought 3 years ago...or really ever in my life that I would be where I am right now. 27, a mama, and about to go through a nasty divorce.

you may be surprised at this point. the truth is though that for 6 years I have been silently struggling. I have felt trapped, alone, and unworthy. I would tell you that it is honestly for the best and and once the dust has settled, things will be much better.

I'd tell you that in 2017 I learned that I matter, my feelings and my happiness matter. for a while now I have struggled with feeling less than, not a priority and honestly, I am fucking over it. whether in my marriage or in friendships, I am over it. as far as my marriage, I just know that I deserve better, I can do better and I deserve better. and for friendships well, I understand that here and there things come up and plans have to be canceled but when it is every single time, I just don't need that. I need friends and relationships that are there for me always because I always put 100% into mine.

As we were sipping on our last few sips of wine, I would tell you that I know I will be okay with time. I know I have a lot of years ahead of me and although the unknowns scare me currently, I am excited for what the future has in store for me.

we'd hug, cash out and look forward to our next time-definitely for coffee.

Comments

  1. Sending you hugs, good vibes, and lots of virtual wine! Everything will be okay, in time-and if you ever need an ear to vent to send me a shout!

    xoxo, SS


    Southern and Style

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  2. Wine is always a much better way to sit and talk about the crap parts of life. You definitely will get through and come out better for it!

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  3. Wine and coffee are equals so no shame there lol. So sorry about the crappy developments sarah. Sending you so much love, hugs and prayers. You are a strong cookie and will get though this :)

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